“I did this for you” 

An empty utterance

“I did this for us”

Maybe that means something

Maybe you’ll accept that.

Because its the truth

I did this for our future

Even though you no longer have one

It’s better than the one I could give you right now.

I am impatient

Quick to anger

Easily swayed by the darkness

I couldn’t give you all my love

And yet your loss has broken me.

I am not who I was

I am grief

I am suffering

I mourn and yet

I am love

I am hope

I will get better

For you I have a future

For you

So I thank you.